Pregnancy time is surely the most wonderful time I have ever experienced in my life. The feeling of a life inside you gives you an overwhelming feeling and at the same time it makes you feel apprehensive about your future (the delivery time, health of your baby and would you be able to be a great mom). Nevertheless, I loved every sec of feeling my son’s kicks to seeing him for the first time.

The minute the doctor brought him to me and touched his skin against my cheeks the first thing that I said was “I Love You”
One of the signs of pregnancy that every woman face is the “weakness” “tiredness”; especially in the last few months of pregnancy when your baby weight is increasing at a faster pace. Any normal person can understand how challenging the pregnancy can be. But you will find some absolutely unbearable people who have no sense of understanding.

During the time I was pregnant I used to feel weak and tired, not to mention my too much weight gain that made things worse for me (thanks to my bad eating habit).
I came to my home town in the last months of my pregnancy before that I was in “Kiev”. Like everybody else you want to be with your mom in the last months of pregnancy. As I am very close to my mom so I intentionally made a decision of joining mom.
But But But

There were some incidents that shook me…. So today I am going to uncover all

• One day I went to a university where I wanted to fill some forms to enroll myself in some programme. The guy who was distributing the forms was not around.. two chairs were lying there.. so I sat on one chair as I was literally tired waiting for the guy. The guy came and said “ get up” I gave a disgusting look and looked at the other chair kept right next to him.. I stood up anyway – I was amazed to see what I saw afterward. He sat on one chair and put his legs on the other one. (Did I forget to mention I was 9 months pregnant then?)

• I was crossing the main road and it was a green light all of a sudden one speeding car passed by me with the full music on .. I thought to myself was he blind? There was a difference of fraction of seconds otherwise I would have ………….

• Once I was standing in a queue ..it was a long long queue but nobody proposed to help me.

• I was in Mc donalds waiting for my husband for over half n hour, it was all full but nobody bothered to offer me a seat to sit down..

• And this incident was after “my son” “joshu” was born. He was having a fever so I took him to the nearest hospital, I was all alone at home so couldn’t take him in a car as he can’t sit on his own. So I took a riki; reached the hospital quite comfortably but when I came out of the hospital it was raining like “cats and dogs”. I was not having an umbrella with me as I didn’t expect the weather to be like that. So I was struggling to cover joshu with whatever I could. After waiting for some time I got a rikshaw the minute I sat on it he saw some lady and asked her where are you going. She said “xyz” place the rikshaw guy looked at me and asked me to get down because he got the passenger who could give him more money… While my house was quite near to the hospital. I couldn’t believe that he actually was asking me to get down seeing my son drenched badly in rain.. I controlled myself though I was on the brink of breaking down..

On the other hand when I was out of India wherever I went I got a special treatment in every possible way; from kids to old people everybody helped me, gave me a way and even went out of the way to do anything possible to offer me comfort.
I feel sad to say if it was not for my parents I wouldn’t have chosen “Delhi” to spend my “pregnancy period” .

If I may Mr. Sanghvi – here is the rebuttal. I shall call this does Vir Sanghvi has a spine? Or is he just another political concubine. I don’t put you in the same bracket as Barkha Dutta – no! She is not as arrogant as you, she does not have your joie de vivre!Your scripted interviews with Sonia Gandhi and Saif Ali Khan makes me realize what a phoney you really are. Your dead pan expression every time you go to some exclusive resort makes me realize that your fall from grace will be as boring as your shows. You give us the references to your criticism of A Raja and co. Do you really expect educated people in India to believe you. To quote your statement from your text “pass on message to any Congress leader we met in the course of our work”. Who the hell you think you are? Who the hell are you to pass messages to the government?

Just remember – you are just another pawn in this game. And if you have any spine left – kill yourself or leave my country.

The Varanasi bomb attack is just a distraction from the slew of scams that has erupted for  the Congress government. The one 18 month old baby who died today is just a casualty of either miscalculation or a sentimental value for the airways. This had to happen – Adarsh Society case, Tamil Nadu land case, 2G Spectrum scam and now the fall from grace of talking heads like Vir Sanghvi and the holier than thou Barkha Dutta.

She is the Kargil reporting, angry young TV journalist whose integrity and gritty nature even inspired Farhan Akhtar to model Preity Zinta’s character in the movie Lakshya; she has now become just like the rest of the other journalistic concubines of politicians and corporate lobbyists. At least Vir Sanghvi is arrogant, he goes to 5-star restaurants for a charity meal, at least he wears his vanity and the pseudo intellectual accent on his sleeve. The scripted interviews with Sonia Gandhi made him the pet of 10 Janpath.

If Barkha Dutt still has a spine left in her body then she should kill herself. Kill herself because she has betrayed the inspiration she once was  to millions of girls wanting to be like her. Does Pranoy Roy sleep tonight knowing he created monster or is he just happy for his protégé. I bet Sardesai is having a laugh!

I am angry that people don’t rise up. I am angry that by Feb 2011 no one will care and the news will go to the back pages and then disappear. NDTV stands for integrity – does it really. They have become power hungry just like Fox news or Sky. If Barkha Butt is not shown the door then we know where does Dr. Roy stand. 

Her Twitter retraction is full of guilt, the hairstyle and make-up speaks volumes of that arrogance that she had once renounced. The other TV journalists will now get the pitchforks and we will watch the once feisty young reported be put on ice. But will they? Karan Thappar did a story but only because he gleaming that he has chance to come back into the spotlight. Everyone loves a roast!

The Terrorist Attack – Varanasi

The Varanasi bomb attack was done just create a distraction from everyone. A small incident with the least cost of life, big enough to get the media blitz and small enough not kill many people. This is democracy in-action at its best. While the Indian public is glued to reality television garbage, Bollywood scandals and of course our cricket team – the real story gets squashed.

The attack which was followed right on queue by the terrorist group Indian Mujahedeen claiming responsibility. I wonder about all the other Indian Mujahedeen attacks – was some scandal going on then? That would be interesting.

The Verdict

We cannot ask the army to take over, we know how corrupt they are. Let’s just say its the system we live in. It’s  all connected. Since people like Corrupt Nira Radia and Vir Sanghvi talk about cabinet portfolios like they were exchanging recipes. We live in a world where we can’t tell the bad guys from the good guys. All we can hope is that they don’t sell India as cheaply as they do now.

Some inspiring words that my hubby’s grandfather told him, words that are simple yet influential. He shared his story of life – his mistakes, his regrets and a lot more. He said whatever mistakes I made just don’t make those mistakes. It’s certain that you will have your share of mistakes based on your life experiences. This made me think on what kind of approach we have towards our lives and how crucial it’s to realize certain important aspects.

Today after a long time I felt a “zeal” to write something about how each one of us are leading our lives and how many of us are focussed. How the most influential people have achieved success and attained their goals. How one human being is more focussed than another? The philosophy behind all this is far complicated than it looks like.

The only place in your body that help you attain your goals is your mind. When you lead your life there are many distractions and obstacles that can divert your path from your goals. But if you have control within your mind you will become more determined to achieve your goal and be focussed in life.

Your mind dictates your day to day activity on how you react to certain situations in life. Take charge of your mind with a positive outlook, fear of a failure and  negative thoughts are bound to come but once you exercise control on your mind and work hard towards your goals your life will be transformed in a good way.
Look for inspiring figures; read the biographies of influential people you will learn something from their struggle in life. Now is the time when you can unleash your true potential and realize of what you are capable of attaining in life. 

How We disregard Our Inner self

On the other hand, have you ever wondered how People tend to work on their outer appearance more than their inner soul. Majority of us are willing to do anything that it takes to look attractive but how many of us hear their inner voice. Little do we know that the only place that can help you to lead a fulfilling life is when you discover your mind power?
Well Well Well today Ask yourself a few questions if you want something more from your life. Do you have control on your mind and your thought process?